...yet I Did Get Carried Away into Aggression at Syracuse

 ...I'm really examining the micro actions, including speech, right now. I'm noticing how a strong desire to impress people led me to a cheap place, once, in my lecture at Syracuse. I talked about killing people, with relish. Something compelled me to go beyond what I was saying, which was about nonviolence. 

I am struck by how Gandhi says, you have to be ready to kill in order to be nonviolent, otherwise you're a coward. That was the context. Then I got carried away. 

There is a very seductive language of violence, for instance when it comes to ecological action. I was speaking out against blowing up a pipeline--it would only hurt nonwhite people, and nonhuman beings, and so on. But I felt I needed to prove that I was equally capable of imagining violence. 

I'm very grateful to my hosts, because this new project is bigger than Hyperobjects, and I truly need to gig it and road test it before I've really "thought" it, which his how that book became so incredibly great.